My biggest fear

Came true today... They couldn't find the heartbeat.

I am crushed.

Party over heeeerrrrreeeee

Today was a celebration in the office! :) We celebrated the 4th, and 2 birthdays. Although I ate very well, my tummy is protesting, and I feel sick as a dog. I stayed away from the fried chicken! And the cake! and bread!! I just ate a plain hamburger patty. oh well, Jelly just didn't like it.


I'm still waiting to hear about the retail space though. The website still just says the finalists, but it's really cool to see Sugar Mama's listed there as a top 10 finalist!



Yesterday, Nichole and I were talking about buying a little tux (possibly) for a wedding I'm going to next year.




I thought that was the cutest thing, and I remembered how adorable little Carlos looked at our wedding and sent her a photo. that led to questions about where I got the bling :) I explained all about my amazing friends from Nordstrom - Miami. This is them (at our actual wedding on May 5, 2005, at 5:55 p.m.) We had the best small backyard bbq by Carlos and Tracy's pool, with a beautiful view of all the big star's homes along the water (Shaq's house was directly across the water LOL).

After telling her about them, I missed them SO much and had this huge hole in my heart. I picked up the phone and called Patricia, Debbie, and Carlos. (Unfortunately Michael and Jeff are in Texas somewhere and I have no idea where to find them!)

After talking with Carlos less that 3 seconds, he said "you're pregnant, I can hear it in your voice." LOL amazing!! :) He knew.

We plan to see each other in mid August. I hope I can work it out to have Debbie and Patricia there too! I miss them all so very much.

Froggie

This is me, in bed, until about an hour before I go to sleep. "oooh my tummy is sick" LOL

Last night I talked with the daughter of a friend at work. She’s due January 19th, and she told me to call her if I had questions about anything because she’s read so many books already. She was extremely nice.

After that I sat on the couch while Gabe played his xbox and read one of my preggo books. I felt a lot better because a lot of stuff I’m feeling is really normal.

Today has been a stressful day at work, but I’m staying positive. I keep reminding myself that I have a date with my Jelly on Thursday to listen to his/her heart. Unfortunately Gabe won’t make it to that one. Too much going on at work.

Happy Birthday Carlos!

Today is Carlos, our nephew's, birthday! He is 6!! Crazy how time flies!!!

This photo is from his birthday last year. It's one of my favorite photos. I remember watching them together and listening to Gabe read him a bed time story and thinking how great it will be when we have kids. :)

I wish we could see little Carlos today and give him a big hug and kiss. They live in California. But Nani and Tata are visiting with him today, and I'm sure they'll give him lots of love for us.

It continued.

Today was AWFUL.

We woke up late again and I was already sick. I knew I should eat but nothing sounded good, except toast. Gabe felt like pancakes so I suggested IHOP. Big mistake. I ordered scrambled eggs with hash browns and toast. I ate the toast but only a few bites of the other stuff. I couldn't look at Gabe's plate. He does this thing where he mixes all of his food. Runny eggs (that was the worst part), cornbeef hash, and hash browns all mixed up. It took my all...

He ate that, pancakes, and the rest of my food. God bess him.

We went over to Gabe's parent's house to check on the cats while they're away. We stayed there for a few hours watching tv. He found saltine crackers, and they were amazing. I felt a lot better and was able to eat some soup and toast when we got home. LOL yay for soup!! :)

I feel blessed to have my Jelly. Even with all the sickies, I thank God that I have him/her and I just pray that Jelly comes out healthy and strong.

Definitely feelin' it...

Last night was so nice! I got to hang out with my Nichole finally! Things have been so hectic, and all I've been able to do is sleep lately. We caught up, and so did the boys. :) great night.

Today, I wasn't so lucky. We woke up late, which was nice, but by the time we got to Miami to visit with Mom, Beck, Julie and Jay, I was so sick. I couldn't stand to even eat the bread on the table while they ate lunch. The smells made me worse. I sipped ice water and chewed a piece of gum.

We decided to walk around Lincoln Road and see the shops. It was so hot, I felt so bad I just wasn't able to do it. We went in to Ghirardelli cooled off, and decided it was time for me to go home. :( I felt bad.

We ended the night by watching 2 movies, and I didn't want to leave the bed.

Week 7

"With your child's biggest growth spurt until puberty, the embryo more than doubles in size from .16 to .44 inches. The legs and arms extend and grow from the torso and the heart divides into right and left chambers. The forebrain also divides into two hemispheres. "

and "Your baby has slightly webbed fingers and toes." awe, a little froggie. :)

I can't wait until the next ultrasound on Thursday!!! She wanted me to come back and hear the heart. She said I would be surprised at how different the baby will look already!! Hurry up Thursday!! :)

Loss of a Legend

First - SO SAD about Michael Jackson. He died today. I maintained a love for him through today!! Just separate the personal life from the star that he was. He was simply amazing. I have amazing memories of my sisters and me dancing to his albums, and watching Moonwalker. “It’s just a Plug.” A lady in the office brought in 2 of these dolls. She’s a major collector of memorabilia. I bet eBay will be bananas now. It’s amazing that it took his death for people to remember how great he was.

I had my interview for the bakery too. It went ok. I’m not expecting to win it, but it would be nice. They asked a lot of questions. They were intense, and seemed to be really busy. All in all, I didn’t analyze it (surprise surprise!) Whatever happens is supposed to happen.
Gabe was adorable though. When he got home I said “I didn’t win, Daddy.” He put his hand on my belly and said “You already won, Mama. You won this! Be happy.” And just like that, I was ecstatic again. Thrilled to have my Jellyfish.

Baby Luck

"this baby will bring all kinds of luck, you'll see" ~granny

I think she was on to something! yesterday, I got a call from the retail space giveaway contest that I had entered a while ago... I'm in the top 10 finalists and they want to interview me on the phone Thursday!!!!! I might just get what I wish for this year!! My Bakery!!!! Dad better check that lotto ticket I bought for him on Father's day!!! LOL


After an extremely rude comment yesterday about me "looking huge" (no joke, someone actually said that to me...) I am eating fruit for breakfast. with chocolate milk. lol hey! it's a great substitute for coffee, and I'm drinking milk!

PHOTOS!!!

We could see the little heart beat!!!! awe!!! OK, so the sonogram lady confirmed. 6 week munchkin, 8 week mama. She said the baby is the size of a grain of rice. Gabe said Jasmine rice when he looked at the photos. LOL cute.

if anyone would like to see the real photos, they will be framed shortly. :)

Girl vs. Boy

According to mom, since there hasn't been any morning sickness (knock on wood) yet, she thinks Jelly will be a boy.

According to this Chinese Conception Gender Chart - we should be having a girl.

According to Madame Zaritzka "The day you deliver, outside will be sunny. Your baby will arrive in the early morning. After a labor lasting approximately 9 hours, your child, a girl, will be born. Your baby will weigh about 13 pounds, 9 ounces, and will be 19,19-1/2 inches long. This child will have light amber eyes and fluffy black hair."

.......in which case I am in serious trouble. 13 pounds 9 ounces!!! are you kidding me!!! I agree with the fluffy black hair bit though.

Gabe and I both don't really care what Jelly will be, we just want healthy. But I think Gabe would prefer a girl.

What do you think? Boy or girl??

Gestation

WOW, I just figured it out. LOL

I was reading this book and it said that the gestational age is 2 weeks less than how far along I am.

See, the first doctor I went to said 6 weeks - and before I knew it i was already back in my car he rushed me out. I had to call back to ask when I was due. then the next day, I had that sonogram, and she said that I only measured 4 weeks. so I was really confused. now it makes more sense. I was 6 weeks along and the gestation was 4 weeks. they're really terrible with first-time moms!! I feel like I know nothing! I'm reading a lot, but I'm glad I'm going to see my real doctor on the 7th.

so here we are 2 weeks later, I think I'm 8 weeks along with a 6 week fish. no? Oh Lord... Let's ask tomorrow at the next sonogram.

Happy Father's Day

Gabe is getting ready for the baby. :)

We went all over looking at baby furnature with mom, Julie, and Beckala. We started at Ikea, then to Buy Buy Baby, then Macy's, then JC Penny, and decided in the end that Ikea was the place to go. We had a lot of fun oohing and aawweing.

had a lovely father's day dinner with my dad and rested the rest of the day. It was a lovely weekend!

Easter Seals Bowling Charity

Today we delivered the 215 cookies we made (all 3 of us, thanks for your help Pop!) They were shaped like bowling pins and balls. Daddy bowled for us because I wasn't sure I should be lifting. I know, a little over-cautious, but I was told nothing over a gallon of milk (weight wise). I want my jelly safe. So, we watched Gabby bowl his heart out.

you like the fancy kicks? :)

Need a New Name!!!

Jelly isn't so jelly anymore! I might need a new name soon. :) I can't believe all the development already! I still feel normal so I guess I expected the baby to stay put. LOL

there's a little person in me!! awe! I feel all emotional today!

Funny Preggo Shirts

We are definitely looking forward to the weekend.

This was a very, very long week indeed.

I had another bad dream last night, but went to bed very early. Tonight we're going to take it easy, I need to finish up the cookies for tomorrow's event. Beck will be in town, I'm excited to see her!

I think I'm loosing it a little though... I called to order a bagel this morning... I dialed Gabe's number. He answered, and I asked if it was Tina's (the name of the cafe) Gabe said "who you callin Tina?!" LOL oh boy... I can't wait to see my pillow again! :)

Cranky

Yeah, that's a nickel. That's the size of the vitamins I'm taking. LOL Horse pills.

Today I am cranky. It's a mixture of not enough sleep (or good sleep for that matter, I've been tossing and turning, and having weirdo dreams.) and just ready to be done with the work week. so ready to just relax....

this morning I wanted cream cheese like you wouldn't believe. I still do actually, but I think I've had my quota. I also decided that I wanted pickles with my cream cheese. yeah......

Grandma is Jewish, so I LOVE pickles, but as breakfast? never. LOL oh Jelly - hang on :) that was pretty gross. sorry!

to-do list!

A friend at work left this huggies coupon on my desk. It’s to stock up “before the economy gets any worse” haha too cute.

Last night we got some foods and watched a movie (doomsday – I highly don’t recommend it), and I fell asleep early. Seems to be the theme of the week.

I have a cookie order (250 cookies to be exact), wedding photos to clean up and put on a disc, and a million ebay things to ship this week… and I really need to get motivated! All I want to do is be laaazy….

I will do what I can, but I won't over do it. :) need to be careful these days....

More Pregnant.

I just got the results form my Friday blood test and I am indeed more pregnant than I was before. LOL My hormone level did rise like it was supposed to. Yay! all is good in the tummy! Next up: ultrasound on the 23rd. Yippie!!

Food was tough this morning. I don't think the baby wanted ANYTHING and then all of a sudden, I wanted everything. I ate the rest of the bagel s/he didn't want with peanut butter. I feel a lot better!

I walked around the neighborhood a little last night too. I was proud of me. :) lol I plan to do it often.

I got the funny tips here.

Sleep

I read this today:

"During the next few days, your baby's heart will start early contractions, which later become distinct beats. By the end of the third week of gestation (five weeks in menstrual age) the length of the embryo is about 1.5 to 2 millimeters long. All of your baby's major organs are under development, and facial features, such as ears and eyes, begin to form. The neural tube, which will later be referred to as the spinal cord, will fuse this week. And buds appear that will soon be the arms and legs. No wonder you are so tired!"

So much happening this week! this could explain why I went to bed AGAIN last night at around 6. All I want to do is sleep lately! I need to get active! Yes, tonight we walk. even if it's just for a little.